some photos during the day to perak cave...

this was the entrance of the temple... tat stupid's camera was so lau ya^^





i was sitting thr posing on the stairs....hehe..





was lying on the hot batu at the side..i have to climbed in la.. and he asked me to act like a leopard climbing on the big stone... zzzz





it's kinda FAIL!!




than we moved to the "kun yum" stop...LOL. was sweating like hell!!!





i duno he was trying a pic of me or my sunnie?? >.<






that was the dustbin actually...we got ntg to do,n when he was tryin to take the pic of the basket, i qucikly went in...good shot though.. LOL
Noone know tat was a dustbin, it looks like a durian basket more!!! ahahhaa..







this was the place ppl used to view scenery... bt than it's dirty...






i was climbing down the stairs.. n saying goodbye perak cave =)

YEAH!!

First of all, no bus for me on Saturday..how am i coming back????!! but i am back by car summore.....haha.. my parents came up to fetch me,wat to do??!! hehe...camwhoring in the car again^^


I am back frm my vacation for this sememster break.. i was happily enjoying in Penang.... ATE non stop...n SHOP non stop..hehe....see my cute nephew...he is super duper noisy... i cant have a good sleep everyday it's because of him!!
bt than he is so adorable with his big tummy... miss his

voice now when i am back..LOL
he eats a lot...really a lot...and he is 2 yrs only....he likes to kacau..he is jus so cute!! but sometimes he is so irritating..no peace for the whole day when he is in..he cried and screamed so loudly in the shopping mall...everyone also looking at us..thought wat we've done to him..aiks.. he ar...he likes to kepo-ing...
my aunty's house is full of babies noise everyday... the another baby was my cousin's a few months born baby...he likes to shake his head,duno why..haha.. and he always smile when we call and talked to him....LOL...



finish of babies.. now my turn, my nails are coloured.... PINK!!



my toe nails....



nice??!!!
anyway, i am going back to nilai on monday!! freaking early in the morning....

Tuesday

hahaha..tomorrow is wednesday..the day to Penang is coming!! please don't cancel my trip..please..i put an efford to go penang alone cause i wanna shop!! Queensbay mall.... MNG n TOPSHOP..too bad no ZARA...leave zara to kl then..hahahahahha...
i know i am spending a lot this month, bt than i jus can't stop..duno y...hand itchy... BUT dad n mum, dun worry, i wont buy a lot..1 white skirt and a few shirts...hehe..not a lot,rite??? LOL...
i jus can't stop shopping cause i am a girl ^^
finishing my drama today...hoho... i thought i saw chow chow and MC wearing bridal clothes.. bt than why din see any of that...LOL.... dog loves cat...haha... from hatred, to friends, and at last to love.... this is wat we call love?? haha... if every relationship is like wut shows in movies,how good if it's really that... bt than stop dreaming..that is just only movie la...come back to reality.....
hope everything is not going out of my plan... i still hav to clean the house...hmmm..... MA FAN!!
better not to stay outside..at home is the best!! haha....but than learn to be independant..it's time la..20 years old dy.... no more longer a kid... kiki...
some pictures of my secondary schoolmates...i thought i can go back to my old school to have a look..bt than i think next round.. or maybe friday if i'm free...miss my teachers a lot sia...


5 pretty girls originated from IPOH AVE MARIA CONVENT.... hahaha....
p/s: the 2 on my right in the pic are my bestie!!DON'T PLAY PLAY

summary

I was always msn-ing and watching dramas all these days.. thanks andy for accompanying me chatting all these days as ur're oso bored at home...LOL... he was my classmate for my last semester...i usually don't talk to people i don't really know in the class,same goes to him...we din even smile or talk.... we come to know each other i think is when he came for the last law class where the lecturer is giving tipss..ahhahaha... we then get to talk and we studied consumer behavior together as we're in the same class.... he is quite interesting and friendly...wat oso can talk 1..n he always says that we're "open minded" people....hahaha....well,let's see...
don't forget we,classmates are going to 1U... ZARA N MNG..... don't forget....


haha..it's kinda long time i neva write anything cause i'm too lazy to type... hehe...
anyway, briefly write through some days... first of all, compare this photo with the one before this post,k? hmm..ignore my eye bags...hehe.. jus compare the hair?? wat if i curl my hair end of this year??this is the temp 1..gone after 1 day..
hmm...hope i looks different le.. ^^
after this, met up with jiar li n seong yi tat night.. first time went back home at 12.30pm...wakaka... LOL
and then i went to had steamboat yesterday.. ate so much...
9 plates of beef, first time in my life.. i became pro to cook beef n someone became pro of eating beef....hahha....
anyway, after that...



and today, monday..luckily i caught something... i wanted to have a new sunnie long time ago...today i was so desperate with it and i went to bercham near my house to search for it.....hmm... i dun wanna get 1 too expensive n not a 1 from cck (chee cheong kai) by kelvin tan kah soon...so,i bought 1 around 170 le... although it's not really special and nice like gucci or armani..bt it's okie for me..economical..hehe....cause i won't really appreciate glasses..better save money go shopping in Penang... Penang, i am cominggggg~~~~ hoho...heading to penang on wednesday..first time going by BUS..n summore ALONE =) but wat to do? i am so desperate in shopping nowww!!!
camwhoring in the car...hehe....
n something weird me n tan kah soon did today...is headed to PERAK CAVE for his photo shooting..so damn hot... 3 something in the afternoon went thr for photo shooting??!! weird,rite?ntg much in Ipoh Cave... Sam Poh Tong is 100x better than the wateva cave....i am gaining weight this holiday!! no no no..stop eating so much..seriously,tomorrow NO LUNCH!!!! jus drink water n apples for lunch..... LISTEN, MS LIM QQ....

i looks like ah ma??!! do i?? is it because the furniture behind all i became so chan?? bt than i slept for more than 12 hours dy..how come?!!! i am going for my facial this weekend...going to dye my hair n trim my hair!! i dun care!! i must be more confident to myself...i am not that bad as wat u all think!! wait n c.... talking and doing nothing in the house... everyday facing my new bff n new bed... wat else can i do??outside so hot summore...aiksss...bt than waiting for u to come back,k?? n today is alreday wednesday...i am doing nothing,everyday eat, sleep..haha.. watching drama now...
cow n dog pulak..LOL..

happy sunday

y today was a happy sunday because i am going back to my home.. yipeee... HOME SWEET HOME =) mummy n daddy,here i come...miss u all so much...
to say it's a happy sunday because i have *i* to help me to take all my stuffs down from hostel to the car,than from the car to klia than back to hostel..LOL..he did a great job!!bravo..hehe..
i boarded up the bus sharp at 2.25pm... i held my tears..bt i stunt for awhile..the last thing i thought was wat am i doing?!!! @^#^$(%%)_%_)_)*&$^#..
i miss u..really misses u a lot..i wish to sms or call u...bt i don't dare..although i still have u in my heart, u dump me because of "tat" kind of reason i still can forgive you,bt than it's a bit unfair to me..ok? i am a girl.. maybe i doesn't really suits u...i am nt the one u wan...or jus maybe one day, the faith came back n we both are really serious in it??!! LOL.. dreaming too much ady..
bt to tell myself to forget u,this is the end of me n u...i wouldn't wanna say this out through my mouth cause i can't..bt maybe to tell myself to don't think so much, i am telling right in my heart....
u noe how's my heart feel??!! it's so so sour... tears are not rolling down from my eyes,bt than from my heart...once i see things about u n u personally, i feel one kind..i wish to go over this stage that makes me suffer a lot... once in a while, i still dream of u...everytime my friends came n open my photos, i see u n me.. were so happy n enjoying n plaaning things so happily and well..bt than...it ended up so fast and u made such an arrogant decision...
it wouldn't be anything to u...bt than it's not to me i think..it's kinda hard for me to meet someone.. i like or i prefer... i will learn to live happier without you.. n you too..k?
sorry for making you angry those days and i really din mean it... i really nid some time...i thought i can change a lot cause i nid someone to control me... i tried my very best..chances should be given but not to be limited to the one you love..how hard or how difficult, you still have to bear with it.. you have to be tough enough oso..nothing is so easy,even a relationship....
i believe if we can go over this, we can be very happy..bt it just depends on you and me.. and wat people always said, a clap wont be loud with one hand... i am the one changing a lot and i hope you can also change some of urs... i din expect much...i noe u did change a lot because u wanted to have a serious and longer 1..bt than so sorry to disappoint you... i am so sorry...
at least we had happy moments before that will never ever disappear and deleted frm my mind... u treated me very good..maybe i deserved to have this ending..i might learn something from you..i did...i realised everything but it's too late... ur're not giving me one more chance. i noe..
i still can remember the every moment we went out..i miss u so much..i doesn't belongs to u... anyway, take care ya... dun smoke so much as it's bad for health...take good care of urself n oso ur parents... ur beloved mummy ^^... she looks gorgeous and she will always do...
hope we're still friends one day...i am there to giv u mentally support...

SATURDAY

yes!!! today will be a nice n happy saturday.. i am going to kl specially for the measurement of my costume at first...who knows i ended up going there without measuring anything, but went to Pavilion and bought 1 pair of shoes from vincci and 1 G200o n Pull n bear shirt n it's pink in colour =) it looks sweet with a little birdie in front...haha...
i will wear on it back to Ipoh tomorrow... am i going to pierce my nose?? am i?? a bit scare but i wan... how how?? let me discuss with few friends first..haha...n i will decide whether to peirce or not later in IPOH...
i am lack of sleep for 2 days.this afternoon was vry sickening...i think a lot..think things that i shouldn't be thinking... thinking too much is nt a good thing.. seriously..it's sucks.. anyway, buying things to released myself is useful..hehe...
i am very the tired now bt i jus dun wish to sleep..aiksss
YEAH YEAH..tomorrow i am going back to I-P-O-H..hope i can meet gary in ipoh.. =)
i miss u so much, din c u for so long since u left to USA..
anyway, i gotta pack my things.. OMG..i am shifting half of the cupboard back.. =P haha...so, i continue writing when i am back in my house using wireless!!wakakkaa......
nitezzz..
one more thing, does this really saying what is my feeling??
" Your usual instinct is to deal with needy people compassionately, but you have to start removing your emotions from things. Sometimes people get in the habit of taking advantage of generous people like yourself, and you need to know how to sense when you're dealing with one of these folks. The problems of other people are nothing you should take on, especially right now when you have important issues of your own to focus on. Turn toward yourself and away from users. " hope it's not..

15th of August..

HOHO!!!! first of all, A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TRI IRAWAN WIJAYA....i thought of sending u a testimonial bt i saw some ppl sending to u so i keep it to here..
i did wish u yesterday nite..hope my wishes will always be with u n be my kor kor always ^^
i miss u n the time going to ur room kacau n cry...haha..anyway.. hope u will have a bright future coming up, get a good job, sayang ur girl girl ya^^ appreciate the time with her n her whole thing....
remember, kor!! mui mui will always support u here... come back to visit me when ur're free,k?
back to the house case now, when u guys are going to shift out n i need to inform others so they can shift their things in... i am being stucked..duno what should i do although i know things are not going to turn back...
I was talking to lai's sis...she mentioned about her grandma... n she is jus right beside her... she passes msg to her sis n to me..i was thinking how bad am i dumping him... i know i shouldn't be like tatt...bt than,i have already did something i wouldn't wanna do... i can change the fact and reality now bt jus to face it...today was a vry tiring day, i can't believe that i have jus slept for 3 hours for 2 days... T.T
my head was so dizzy after 12am... but people is always the opposite... I don't want to sleep!! alalalalal....after exam sure mus happy happy ma..wat for wanna sleep to waste the time??!!! hahaha.... i went to midvalley right after my exam.. wanted to go buy something, jus anything..hehe... i walk around midvalley for duno how many hours n i can't get anything... sad.. at last, i bought some clothes..n a belt!!
thanks so much for the treat in chills.. the lamb shoulder is delicious... thanks *I*.... i will appreciate it..no worries,k???
hope ur're enjoying ur days during the holidays.. bt for sure u r... anyway, i am going out for a drink with sky kor kor...he is tremendously sad... n i as his frien must be thr to accompany him.. don't be so sad.. u nid time i guess...I and sky is just in the same situation.. he sad, i oso sad... aikss... n noe wat?? he is calling me his EX EX EX...like hmm..... the same goes to me only, sky!!! blek...
hope all my friends enjoy the 2 week holidays to the max..so do i??take care n c u guys nxt sem^^
happy holidayssssssssssss n i am FREE like a bird now.. =P

getting some breath..

I am quite satisfied of the performance of myself today... but i duno wat gred am i going to get..bt at least i am not pressured n stress like law... well, i enjoyed writing today... i wrote about 10 pages of the answers booklet but with living 1 line after 1... hehe..but conside not bad dy..rite??hahaha..
anyway, one of my frien came back frm england and he came to INTI to do some stuffs so he called me out to have a drink as we promised before.. so, we went out for a drink and had some conversations though... I AM ATTRACTED TO THE LIFE IN UK... How how?? my parents doesn't allow me to go.they are worried of me..bt i really wish to go out and learn to be independant...u all can come n visit me oso,rite?? mummy says she wanna go ovr to UK to work..rite?? mummy always complains that her frien says that it is not worth to study overseas.....hmm.... mummy,can u think the other side or the positive side???
can i go??can i?? haiz..but i don't think there is a chance..wait i try to persuade my parents when i am back in IPOH.. hehe..
I am thinking further and not going to stop there like wat i am last few weeks.... I am moving on..taking further and tougher steps... I would hav better life when i'm in UK i think...hahaha...i think i really need to have a different enviroment to change myself..bt my parents are always not allowing me to do that as i am always small and weak in their heart...how how??wat can i do?? give them and give myself time oso... haha..
Sometimes i do hate that i am born in a only child family..but wat can i do?? god arranged it for me...I do get to have many things sometimes but wat i want now i can't really get.. i can't be blaming my parents because they are too worry and they love me so much...i am the one child in the family,i cant be giving everything up so easily and want my parents to be worrying bout me...
QWER QWIN can do it.. y i have big eye bags ar???!! argh.. can u all leave and go away!! i mean AWAY n dont come back...having headache le now... start to study tonite..don't last minute..no more!!
good luck to all of my friends.... all da best n aza aza fighting!!

screwed this law paper..

this f****ing LAW 321 paper....i shall not forget u.... u screwed me up.... make my mood terrible down to the earth.... i was so so disappointed to myself...fine.. forget about it..it's ovr anyway... jus feel like wanna write something here to express it out... got tips = no tips.. WT...
tomorrow is my service... I gonna study 5 times harder...please.. it's Wednesday, holiday is coming... I am gonna enjoy it soon~~
time please pass faster... i nid time to run..i dun mind it to pass faster for now... i don't wan to stay in this sad situation that doesn't brings me anything better other than single... LOL....
leave and leave...
i am very the sleepy and i am going to sleep now.... gd nite...
good luck and all da best to ric for ur ENL later as u do not nid to study always, everyday going snooker only....LOL.

11th of august

countdown-ing..
1 more day to finalss...
study study study...please =)
i am in love with 1 indonesian song, it's name is "aku bukan untukmu" by Rossa..
I would like to dedicate this song to him.. especially for him....
i will send him the link 1 day... i am waiting for the day...hope i always remain inside in his mind....
stay happy n hav a happy life soon.... take care n all da best.... muacks.... will lov u n miss u always...
The youtube link of this song : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hMBNPj-4fgw....

08.08.08

this is a nice n special day as the date show us the 8th day of the month of august in yr 08...
olympic games is having a opening ceremony on this special day... so, me n my friends planned to go watch it as to relax ourselves.
we managed to watch everything except the last part.. the clock shows 11pm already.. it is time for me to go back to start studying.. i am getting more and more guilty..i am speeding back to my room and waited for vj to teach me....
i started studying since 1am till 4.30am... talking n studying all the way through...i am starting to listen indonesia songs by ratu...
back to love,
i wish to sms n ask him how is him, bt i dun dare..i dun think it will become any better..he has his life now n i do...bt than i used to be beside with him always.. we will be studying together happily..bt than now??this semester?? ended up alone in hostel listening songs, msning and not studying..wasting all my time...haiz..
anyway, study hard... be a good girl and don't disappoint my parents... they care and love me so much....

6th of august

it is wednesday!!! freaking time is passing so fast... i don't wan..i need time to study.... monday is my direct exam...damn!!
as usual...opened my eyes again when i dream of you... it's been a week,bt i am still dreaming of you...i would wish to delete everything in my mind... am i still gonna wait for u?? if one day.... wat will i do??? NO NO NO!! I am not not not...QQ, pls wake up... bt frankly speaking, i don't wanna waste a chance if there is still a chance.. i think we're quite match in everything only because of some attitude and trust problems.. I think we can be vry happy if me n you realised everything..eveything in really everything.... mind-set, thinking,perception and many many more....but let's see how than... let the god decide for us....... Jus stop thinking for now... it doesn't makes any sense at all,okie??
anyway, i got my vaio yesterday.. was not really happy because the norton was not working well..i can't even update and i cant even download a msn installer.. how how sad is inti's connection man!!!
yesterday midnight ur're jus sitting right in front of my room's window...so??!!! i din think much.. jus went n peep for a while and say hi to my friends..that's all and i went to bed... i am going over to apartment to study with my classmates... people outside,say wat u wanna say than.. i am going there to STUDY, not to do anything. if u don't believe or u girls and guys wanna say anything go ahead... i won't giv a fuck!!
anyway, waiting to go back home..i miss home so much..i hope i've lost some weight..but i don't think so... pizza, roti telur at 11 something..how to lose weight?? LOL.....
i bought a zara shirt that vj n ms claud keep ask me to buy.. it shows a wide broad mouth smiling with all the teeth showing out.. they wants me to be always in that condition...I will... sad moments are going to be deletedm erased....okie? i promise you guys...
thanks for accompanying me yesterday... a big big thank you...
anyway, i gotta get ready and start to study!! concentrate..i don't wanna fail!! please, god dun treat me so bad...help n save me ~~~

3rd of august

everytime when i close my eyes... dreams will take me to some scary and unforgettable places...it sounded so hard for me to forget about the past??but than i hav to learn... i believe that isn't a big problem for me,rite??
some misunderstanding happens.... really pains... stop making my heart bleeding, please...but than, hope everything is getting better now..i wouldn't want to say sorry or to explain anything cause i don't think i need to do that.. although it is true we 2 have some problems, i have some attitude problems, yes i admit... bt i don't think is that so easy, rite?? u can changed that fast or maybe u've already changed long time ago bt i din realised it... i am sorry... if u really giving me one more chance, i will not make mistakes like this anymore... you will be thinking that i am just saying only..bt i really mean it... nvm, time really will prove everything to you and me.. thanks so much for the love u gave me before this... it will always be in my mind, forever...
tomorrow is my presentation day and i haven go through my slides yet... so, i am going right now...

2nd of august

I would say it is a happy day though..
i got myself a new laptop n a new pendrive.... am i kinda stupid getting these stuffs to make myself happy?? ermm... maybe not le.. my mum nids to use the computer too... that's y i am changing one so that i can bring this old lappie back to my mum..
Was a bit sad because i had to use my own money to buy ^^ nvm.. i will be recovering my sadness with my new lappie... i will have a new life with it soon... my new vaio will be my new bf for my sem breaks..i will be hugging it to sleep n i promised not to leave him.. LOL... i would be taking good care of him, not to show anger on him and i will trust him... no worries k daddy?
heard tat ur're quite lonely ovr thr...too bad i can't accompany u anymore... hope u'll miss the time when we're together... i think u will be out of the loneliness soon.. no worries... enjoy the life without anyone bothering you... i miss the time we had last time... when we're playing around and laughing so loudly... i miss u so much... but i am standing up....i am trying my best...
And one more thing.... bathing in the toilet alone around 12 something is so so scary.. when i was showering, i heard some guys calling and shouting suddenly n i was thinking is this a girl's hostel? how come there are guys sound?? when i listen carefully, i realised that was the vehicle's sound..bt it is still so scary...i faster take my bath n quickly run into my room.... phew **
n 1 more thing... i was walking up to my room last nite to get my toothbrush, when walk up the stairs, a negro girl shocked me to death.. wow... for goodness sick, dun cover urself with a black scarf late at night..summore standing at the stairs...
anyway, i gotta sleep..tired...
tomorrow will be a nice day ^^
-goodnite-

am i released?

i think i am..i think i made a right n wise decision... i shall neva look back to the past... i am moving on very nicely n happily with my friends...i nid to... i will learn.. i am big enough.. i think i will feel happy to let it go better than holding him...bt 1 thing i jus cant understand is that y a person can change so easily? Is love so powerful? yes, it is... it really put someone deep into the heart...
i wish u guys can acc me to ovrcome this prob... u r totally not worth...u deserved to hav one day... n of cause my frien, don't get upset too.. she is nothing good for u to wait n lov for..although i noe u lov her so much bt as wat am i facing now... jus stay tough n walk through this dark road... wat we nid is jus time.. believe time will tell us wat we want n wat we are... LEARN...
i will bless u all for a good starting till a good ending... she is better n she treated u better....
i am one who loves not to trust, not to believe, like to angry.. i am nt a polite girl....i deserved it =)
today i was talking to my ex.. n suddenly i asked him a question, " last time when i was with u, did i giv freedom to u? did i believe in you?" he answered me, "yes, n a lot, bt i din appreciate it" see people, i did trusted my bf so much last time n at last i get nothing..n at last i am the one being hurt... although now it's unfair n wrong to treat my bf like tat..bt i am really scare...i am really worry i would jus lost u all... i lov u alll...i swear, i did...
don't blame everything on me saying that i din trust u... bt at last wat i heard was u guys did contact long time ago... hoho... wat a great job... i felt i am cheated.. how to believe in guys later??how, can u teach me? bt everything is over... it was jus a dream.. a nice one as i can say...
hope n pray to god i will find 1 bf than can treat me better and stop arguing for unnecessary things later... i want to be myself, enjoy my single life to the max... i know i will live happier without u.. i can do it.. i wan to show u that i am tough enough....
i will be sending u guys a smile when u 2 walking infront of me holding hands one day...ok?
mr**,i promised u i will be tough n i will be stronger...tears are nt going to roll because of him.. thanks so much for ur support n ur accompany... i appreciate it so much n i wanna thank u so much..n of course to my friends too... thanks n i feel sorry for disturbing u guys so much...
final is coming soon, study hard..work hard n strive the best...
EVERYTHING IS OVER... OVER N OVER.... SLEEP WELL N IT WILL BE BETTER TOMORROW... NO MORE LOOKING BACK, GIRL!!