happy sunday

y today was a happy sunday because i am going back to my home.. yipeee... HOME SWEET HOME =) mummy n daddy,here i come...miss u all so much...
to say it's a happy sunday because i have *i* to help me to take all my stuffs down from hostel to the car,than from the car to klia than back to hostel..LOL..he did a great job!!bravo..hehe..
i boarded up the bus sharp at 2.25pm... i held my tears..bt i stunt for awhile..the last thing i thought was wat am i doing?!!! @^#^$(%%)_%_)_)*&$^#..
i miss u..really misses u a lot..i wish to sms or call u...bt i don't dare..although i still have u in my heart, u dump me because of "tat" kind of reason i still can forgive you,bt than it's a bit unfair to me..ok? i am a girl.. maybe i doesn't really suits u...i am nt the one u wan...or jus maybe one day, the faith came back n we both are really serious in it??!! LOL.. dreaming too much ady..
bt to tell myself to forget u,this is the end of me n u...i wouldn't wanna say this out through my mouth cause i can't..bt maybe to tell myself to don't think so much, i am telling right in my heart....
u noe how's my heart feel??!! it's so so sour... tears are not rolling down from my eyes,bt than from my heart...once i see things about u n u personally, i feel one kind..i wish to go over this stage that makes me suffer a lot... once in a while, i still dream of u...everytime my friends came n open my photos, i see u n me.. were so happy n enjoying n plaaning things so happily and well..bt than...it ended up so fast and u made such an arrogant decision...
it wouldn't be anything to u...bt than it's not to me i think..it's kinda hard for me to meet someone.. i like or i prefer... i will learn to live happier without you.. n you too..k?
sorry for making you angry those days and i really din mean it... i really nid some time...i thought i can change a lot cause i nid someone to control me... i tried my very best..chances should be given but not to be limited to the one you love..how hard or how difficult, you still have to bear with it.. you have to be tough enough oso..nothing is so easy,even a relationship....
i believe if we can go over this, we can be very happy..bt it just depends on you and me.. and wat people always said, a clap wont be loud with one hand... i am the one changing a lot and i hope you can also change some of urs... i din expect much...i noe u did change a lot because u wanted to have a serious and longer 1..bt than so sorry to disappoint you... i am so sorry...
at least we had happy moments before that will never ever disappear and deleted frm my mind... u treated me very good..maybe i deserved to have this ending..i might learn something from you..i did...i realised everything but it's too late... ur're not giving me one more chance. i noe..
i still can remember the every moment we went out..i miss u so much..i doesn't belongs to u... anyway, take care ya... dun smoke so much as it's bad for health...take good care of urself n oso ur parents... ur beloved mummy ^^... she looks gorgeous and she will always do...
hope we're still friends one day...i am there to giv u mentally support...