my feelings towards this..

It is hard to express...it's sad? confused??? i am thinking a little much...but i hope to stop thinking too... i know wat should i do now is to relax n not to think so much...bt i duno y it automatically appears in my mind..no matter when n where...why?? why things keep happening on me???
GOD..help me...

HE was talking to his frien and i accidentally heard tat he is telling most of his friends he might be leaving to singapore to work.... indeed i think that is his final decision...
we were touching bout this issue 1 day while we're walking back..... maybe diff hav diff view..i can't stop u too.... i will support u to hav ur own future... money is more important to everyone nowadays....u wont be so stupid because of a girl n not going to hav a good future,rite??

Anyway, i can tell u that i don't wish u to leave me too far..it's hard for us to communicate..it's hard for us to meet...at tat time, we don't hav much time to get together anymore...i can stand by myself bt i feel lonely without u..it's hard to hav a long distance relationship although i know this would be 1 of our challenges..i am speechless...bt can u feel the pain n sadness in my heart??? It wouldn't be a matter for others or maybe for u..

Jus finish chatting with one of my friend..we touched about this thing... she told me about her story...after listening her story, i am thinking again...she waited for her bf for 3 yrs....n the end she get is nothing...they know they're impossible although they love each other so much... is tat their faith??are they 2 still waiting to meet again??to be as happy as last time??

The thing same thing comes to me...can i ask u some ques: are u going to marry me?are u going to be with me,take care of me n be loyal to me?will u ever think how to appreciate me when i'm nt beside u?am i the 1 u really wanna be with and u feel is the most suitable???

I hope to hav answers frm u to make my decision..whether should i wait or shouldn't i?? i am big enough to think a bit far...although other people will tell me tat i'm still small..wat for wanna care so much?u gt plenty of time.. But,it's really very tiring to hav a serious relationship...Many things you hav to be done,to tolerate....to be together is not tat easy... even a LONG DISTANCE relationship... I neva tried b4 bt i strongly disagree it...i can c hw suffer..trust is the most important thing...once u hav lost the trust, everything is lost...how much u love the person is useless....

I don't wan to sit alone in the room crying like a girl jus came out from hospital bahagia because of breaking up...why should i suffer and torture myself so much???does it worth?? wat if i stay tough n strong in everything bt at last we ended up nothing also???I can't imagine how would i looks like... i put in 感情 in this relationship..i hope for the best because i believe i and him can settle it in a different ways..i knew he is good enough to settle with it...bt how come GOD jus can't giv me much more time to be beside him physically for more than only jus this few months??

I am nt strong enough to handle every things in part of my life...i wish i could get one to be with me...i need u..i dun wish to leave u...pls....y am i taking this small thing so serious???but i jus can't stop thinkin....i am learning to be strong..learning to live without u beside..

But i should tell myself i am TOUGH....u can do it..nothing cannot be defeated!!