i looks like ah ma??!! do i?? is it because the furniture behind all i became so chan?? bt than i slept for more than 12 hours dy..how come?!!! i am going for my facial this weekend...going to dye my hair n trim my hair!! i dun care!! i must be more confident to myself...i am not that bad as wat u all think!! wait n c.... talking and doing nothing in the house... everyday facing my new bff n new bed... wat else can i do??outside so hot summore...aiksss...bt than waiting for u to come back,k?? n today is alreday wednesday...i am doing nothing,everyday eat, sleep..haha.. watching drama now...
cow n dog pulak..LOL..

happy sunday

y today was a happy sunday because i am going back to my home.. yipeee... HOME SWEET HOME =) mummy n daddy,here i come...miss u all so much...
to say it's a happy sunday because i have *i* to help me to take all my stuffs down from hostel to the car,than from the car to klia than back to hostel..LOL..he did a great job!!bravo..hehe..
i boarded up the bus sharp at 2.25pm... i held my tears..bt i stunt for awhile..the last thing i thought was wat am i doing?!!! @^#^$(%%)_%_)_)*&$^#..
i miss u..really misses u a lot..i wish to sms or call u...bt i don't dare..although i still have u in my heart, u dump me because of "tat" kind of reason i still can forgive you,bt than it's a bit unfair to me..ok? i am a girl.. maybe i doesn't really suits u...i am nt the one u wan...or jus maybe one day, the faith came back n we both are really serious in it??!! LOL.. dreaming too much ady..
bt to tell myself to forget u,this is the end of me n u...i wouldn't wanna say this out through my mouth cause i can't..bt maybe to tell myself to don't think so much, i am telling right in my heart....
u noe how's my heart feel??!! it's so so sour... tears are not rolling down from my eyes,bt than from my heart...once i see things about u n u personally, i feel one kind..i wish to go over this stage that makes me suffer a lot... once in a while, i still dream of u...everytime my friends came n open my photos, i see u n me.. were so happy n enjoying n plaaning things so happily and well..bt than...it ended up so fast and u made such an arrogant decision...
it wouldn't be anything to u...bt than it's not to me i think..it's kinda hard for me to meet someone.. i like or i prefer... i will learn to live happier without you.. n you too..k?
sorry for making you angry those days and i really din mean it... i really nid some time...i thought i can change a lot cause i nid someone to control me... i tried my very best..chances should be given but not to be limited to the one you love..how hard or how difficult, you still have to bear with it.. you have to be tough enough oso..nothing is so easy,even a relationship....
i believe if we can go over this, we can be very happy..bt it just depends on you and me.. and wat people always said, a clap wont be loud with one hand... i am the one changing a lot and i hope you can also change some of urs... i din expect much...i noe u did change a lot because u wanted to have a serious and longer 1..bt than so sorry to disappoint you... i am so sorry...
at least we had happy moments before that will never ever disappear and deleted frm my mind... u treated me very good..maybe i deserved to have this ending..i might learn something from you..i did...i realised everything but it's too late... ur're not giving me one more chance. i noe..
i still can remember the every moment we went out..i miss u so much..i doesn't belongs to u... anyway, take care ya... dun smoke so much as it's bad for health...take good care of urself n oso ur parents... ur beloved mummy ^^... she looks gorgeous and she will always do...
hope we're still friends one day...i am there to giv u mentally support...

SATURDAY

yes!!! today will be a nice n happy saturday.. i am going to kl specially for the measurement of my costume at first...who knows i ended up going there without measuring anything, but went to Pavilion and bought 1 pair of shoes from vincci and 1 G200o n Pull n bear shirt n it's pink in colour =) it looks sweet with a little birdie in front...haha...
i will wear on it back to Ipoh tomorrow... am i going to pierce my nose?? am i?? a bit scare but i wan... how how?? let me discuss with few friends first..haha...n i will decide whether to peirce or not later in IPOH...
i am lack of sleep for 2 days.this afternoon was vry sickening...i think a lot..think things that i shouldn't be thinking... thinking too much is nt a good thing.. seriously..it's sucks.. anyway, buying things to released myself is useful..hehe...
i am very the tired now bt i jus dun wish to sleep..aiksss
YEAH YEAH..tomorrow i am going back to I-P-O-H..hope i can meet gary in ipoh.. =)
i miss u so much, din c u for so long since u left to USA..
anyway, i gotta pack my things.. OMG..i am shifting half of the cupboard back.. =P haha...so, i continue writing when i am back in my house using wireless!!wakakkaa......
nitezzz..
one more thing, does this really saying what is my feeling??
" Your usual instinct is to deal with needy people compassionately, but you have to start removing your emotions from things. Sometimes people get in the habit of taking advantage of generous people like yourself, and you need to know how to sense when you're dealing with one of these folks. The problems of other people are nothing you should take on, especially right now when you have important issues of your own to focus on. Turn toward yourself and away from users. " hope it's not..

15th of August..

HOHO!!!! first of all, A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TRI IRAWAN WIJAYA....i thought of sending u a testimonial bt i saw some ppl sending to u so i keep it to here..
i did wish u yesterday nite..hope my wishes will always be with u n be my kor kor always ^^
i miss u n the time going to ur room kacau n cry...haha..anyway.. hope u will have a bright future coming up, get a good job, sayang ur girl girl ya^^ appreciate the time with her n her whole thing....
remember, kor!! mui mui will always support u here... come back to visit me when ur're free,k?
back to the house case now, when u guys are going to shift out n i need to inform others so they can shift their things in... i am being stucked..duno what should i do although i know things are not going to turn back...
I was talking to lai's sis...she mentioned about her grandma... n she is jus right beside her... she passes msg to her sis n to me..i was thinking how bad am i dumping him... i know i shouldn't be like tatt...bt than,i have already did something i wouldn't wanna do... i can change the fact and reality now bt jus to face it...today was a vry tiring day, i can't believe that i have jus slept for 3 hours for 2 days... T.T
my head was so dizzy after 12am... but people is always the opposite... I don't want to sleep!! alalalalal....after exam sure mus happy happy ma..wat for wanna sleep to waste the time??!!! hahaha.... i went to midvalley right after my exam.. wanted to go buy something, jus anything..hehe... i walk around midvalley for duno how many hours n i can't get anything... sad.. at last, i bought some clothes..n a belt!!
thanks so much for the treat in chills.. the lamb shoulder is delicious... thanks *I*.... i will appreciate it..no worries,k???
hope ur're enjoying ur days during the holidays.. bt for sure u r... anyway, i am going out for a drink with sky kor kor...he is tremendously sad... n i as his frien must be thr to accompany him.. don't be so sad.. u nid time i guess...I and sky is just in the same situation.. he sad, i oso sad... aikss... n noe wat?? he is calling me his EX EX EX...like hmm..... the same goes to me only, sky!!! blek...
hope all my friends enjoy the 2 week holidays to the max..so do i??take care n c u guys nxt sem^^
happy holidayssssssssssss n i am FREE like a bird now.. =P

getting some breath..

I am quite satisfied of the performance of myself today... but i duno wat gred am i going to get..bt at least i am not pressured n stress like law... well, i enjoyed writing today... i wrote about 10 pages of the answers booklet but with living 1 line after 1... hehe..but conside not bad dy..rite??hahaha..
anyway, one of my frien came back frm england and he came to INTI to do some stuffs so he called me out to have a drink as we promised before.. so, we went out for a drink and had some conversations though... I AM ATTRACTED TO THE LIFE IN UK... How how?? my parents doesn't allow me to go.they are worried of me..bt i really wish to go out and learn to be independant...u all can come n visit me oso,rite?? mummy says she wanna go ovr to UK to work..rite?? mummy always complains that her frien says that it is not worth to study overseas.....hmm.... mummy,can u think the other side or the positive side???
can i go??can i?? haiz..but i don't think there is a chance..wait i try to persuade my parents when i am back in IPOH.. hehe..
I am thinking further and not going to stop there like wat i am last few weeks.... I am moving on..taking further and tougher steps... I would hav better life when i'm in UK i think...hahaha...i think i really need to have a different enviroment to change myself..bt my parents are always not allowing me to do that as i am always small and weak in their heart...how how??wat can i do?? give them and give myself time oso... haha..
Sometimes i do hate that i am born in a only child family..but wat can i do?? god arranged it for me...I do get to have many things sometimes but wat i want now i can't really get.. i can't be blaming my parents because they are too worry and they love me so much...i am the one child in the family,i cant be giving everything up so easily and want my parents to be worrying bout me...
QWER QWIN can do it.. y i have big eye bags ar???!! argh.. can u all leave and go away!! i mean AWAY n dont come back...having headache le now... start to study tonite..don't last minute..no more!!
good luck to all of my friends.... all da best n aza aza fighting!!

screwed this law paper..

this f****ing LAW 321 paper....i shall not forget u.... u screwed me up.... make my mood terrible down to the earth.... i was so so disappointed to myself...fine.. forget about it..it's ovr anyway... jus feel like wanna write something here to express it out... got tips = no tips.. WT...
tomorrow is my service... I gonna study 5 times harder...please.. it's Wednesday, holiday is coming... I am gonna enjoy it soon~~
time please pass faster... i nid time to run..i dun mind it to pass faster for now... i don't wan to stay in this sad situation that doesn't brings me anything better other than single... LOL....
leave and leave...
i am very the sleepy and i am going to sleep now.... gd nite...
good luck and all da best to ric for ur ENL later as u do not nid to study always, everyday going snooker only....LOL.