hmmm.... jus back from the rehearsal in sunway...
so the tired... everyday raining nowadays... since this morning, rain non stop.... so troublesome even to go n get a cab...
anyway,the house is really giving me lots of problem since this monday... first of all, the whole house was so dirty and messy...we came back to clean and threw everything what we don't wan... too bad i din take a photo of it.. i n my housemate used 2 to 3 days to clear and clean everything.. was so so busy...than when i came back to the house only i knew the people stayed before before us took off the modem and router..NO INTERNET!!
wat the hell..no internet wat can i do??!!! haizz.... sad... than my stupid law... law law law....
4 subjects for this semester is it a bit too pressure for me??i tell myself to study hard..no more entertainment for me...okie??!LQQ, study hard!! study.. i am already a failure in something and i don't wanna be another failure in my studies!!
I still can't let go the thing i met this year...why is it so hard to forget it??
i can't look back to my past and try to go back thr..there isn't anyway for me to do that!!
but then i am stucked here..y?? i can't move forward... maybe i still need time.. i am still single.. now only i know the taste of being single... although sometimes it's fun being single..but than i really miss the time..if i'm not doing that, if i have the thinking like now i wouldn't have this feeling.. i will be very happy and sweet going anywhere with my boyfriend..having support from my boyfriend..having an accompany with me wherever i go... i really miss it...i have to accept the fact now cause it's what god treating me.. i know i will meet one soon or maybe later...being together actually full of lies behind.. this is wat someone told me.. actuallly it's true... i can see it bear with my eyes..not going to mention who and i really believe it...
think more postively...boys can have with another one outside but at least they are still sticking with you..they still spend time with you than try to accept it...girls, don't think so much... if their really yours there are still chance to be together..bt if isn't yours..too bad...jus to accept the fact!!
it's really hard to have a 100% love in this world... although i get a 80% but i din really appreciate it.. i know he din lie to me much but sometimes yes..but at that time, i wasn't satisfy with it... but for me now, i am very happy with it...
I was so bitchy last time.. i jealous so much...everything i wouldn't be satisfy... i need more,i aim higher...but than it's a bit difficult...same as wat i get after that, the one choosing is not me but him, so i have to be tough and accept it..i like to quarrel, a bit a bit i will become angry at first,but after tat i did change,although sometimes it's hard for me to stop being angry,but i really can't stop...so sorry to all of my ex boyfriends..i am really sorry...
i felt a bit wasted but it's a bit too late i know...so,i am learning very hard to change it..k?
the one the most you loved won't be always beside them... i wish u all that u can get someone better than me and those who really suits u... i know u all did your best when with me.. i did appreciate it... till now, i didn't even forget anything of you all..i still remember the time with you all...
I LOVE YOU to both of you!! truly from my heart..
so the tired... everyday raining nowadays... since this morning, rain non stop.... so troublesome even to go n get a cab...
anyway,the house is really giving me lots of problem since this monday... first of all, the whole house was so dirty and messy...we came back to clean and threw everything what we don't wan... too bad i din take a photo of it.. i n my housemate used 2 to 3 days to clear and clean everything.. was so so busy...than when i came back to the house only i knew the people stayed before before us took off the modem and router..NO INTERNET!!
wat the hell..no internet wat can i do??!!! haizz.... sad... than my stupid law... law law law....
4 subjects for this semester is it a bit too pressure for me??i tell myself to study hard..no more entertainment for me...okie??!LQQ, study hard!! study.. i am already a failure in something and i don't wanna be another failure in my studies!!
I still can't let go the thing i met this year...why is it so hard to forget it??
i can't look back to my past and try to go back thr..there isn't anyway for me to do that!!
but then i am stucked here..y?? i can't move forward... maybe i still need time.. i am still single.. now only i know the taste of being single... although sometimes it's fun being single..but than i really miss the time..if i'm not doing that, if i have the thinking like now i wouldn't have this feeling.. i will be very happy and sweet going anywhere with my boyfriend..having support from my boyfriend..having an accompany with me wherever i go... i really miss it...i have to accept the fact now cause it's what god treating me.. i know i will meet one soon or maybe later...being together actually full of lies behind.. this is wat someone told me.. actuallly it's true... i can see it bear with my eyes..not going to mention who and i really believe it...
think more postively...boys can have with another one outside but at least they are still sticking with you..they still spend time with you than try to accept it...girls, don't think so much... if their really yours there are still chance to be together..bt if isn't yours..too bad...jus to accept the fact!!
it's really hard to have a 100% love in this world... although i get a 80% but i din really appreciate it.. i know he din lie to me much but sometimes yes..but at that time, i wasn't satisfy with it... but for me now, i am very happy with it...
I was so bitchy last time.. i jealous so much...everything i wouldn't be satisfy... i need more,i aim higher...but than it's a bit difficult...same as wat i get after that, the one choosing is not me but him, so i have to be tough and accept it..i like to quarrel, a bit a bit i will become angry at first,but after tat i did change,although sometimes it's hard for me to stop being angry,but i really can't stop...so sorry to all of my ex boyfriends..i am really sorry...
i felt a bit wasted but it's a bit too late i know...so,i am learning very hard to change it..k?
the one the most you loved won't be always beside them... i wish u all that u can get someone better than me and those who really suits u... i know u all did your best when with me.. i did appreciate it... till now, i didn't even forget anything of you all..i still remember the time with you all...
I LOVE YOU to both of you!! truly from my heart..
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